SlIm MaNiAc :P
I want this pain
and I slowly close my eyes
to see things clearer
looking deep inside the mirror
just to see who the fuck is there
lost inside a warped mind
underneath and inside the eye
demons get pretty loud sometimes
I have tender parts…
I have one-hundred hearts…
I pluck the girl apart…
To find the only unsung song.
Stoned clowns
On my porch
Setting my hair on fire
A trifle bit
Like drinking alcohol
In my underwear
Underwater
Into the spa I drown
Flypaper my consciousness
An ambulance ride
They stand upon me
and stomp my disease away
I read a book of recipes
And cook up insanity
I lie I told a thousand times
Slapped me in the face
And try as I may
My sanity, my hope
Won’t last
I pick up my spit
And drop it on my guilt
Wash away
The cheering stopped
And I adjusted my brain
My loves and hates
Stepped of the train
Nerve endings
Turned my hair black
My father turned
Into a human
So I killed him
With a platinum record
I awoke to the heartburn
Of my headache
Victorious I return
Goofy but otherwise okay
And I meet the wizard
We chat
And the dream comes back
So weird it was
So I kill myself again
THE END
My love is like a drug
Exciting, but with side effects
You’ll regret the day
That you invited me into your bed
The bat stares from his perch
In the sky
And the children laugh
And dance below
Picture amassed
Bodies coated in ink
Begging them to stop drinking
The bleach
Deftly you walked
And softly you lied
Stupidly you tried
To get me to close my eyes
I sat in darkness
And waited for centuries
For you to come
And me to destroy you
And grey scaled walls
Kept me in
And hidden from danger
But they couldn’t keep me
From feeling this anger
So now you face me
And I lead the world
Changing the universe
One molecule at a time
Bending it to my will
Wish me luck…
A vacant nudge
Inside my head
Slipping - oh so slippery
A vacant nothingness
Surrounding us
Listening to feelings
In the dark
I didn’t think
So I wasn’t confused
But when you fell down on me
And as the sky turned blue
Suddenly kisses disappeared
And the wind went unnoticed
The world I knew
It so suddenly ended
She had scars on her eyes
When she stared at me
Like infinity’s vampire
You might as well cry
She was sacred and still I knew her Hell
So many reasons to run and hide
Those glances and stares at me
Blood sliding down her cheeks
She’s hidden underneath
Inside a home of soil
Dead but she’s still screaming
My heart stopped and my skin went pale
Her taste so pure and so female
My teeth so white, bit and tore into her skin
She had scars on her hands
When she came to me
Like infinity’s vampire
She sold me a dream
She was scared but I knew her well
So many reasons to run and hide
And only one to die
The sun penetrated
Bodies as they lay in the grass
The moon gave their hair a glow
The ants and the maggots
Made the bodies their food
And the birds pecked their eyes out
The little voice inside my head
Is reading through the words you said
And the words you wrote in blood
As I envision your sliver smile
A million years of sacred memories
Are all that I have left
Tearing through the fabric my mind
Listening inside for the voice of sympathy
But you can never say I didn’t try
Senseless hours of infinity
Too many lessons to learn in one life
If the hurting doesn’t stop
I’ll stay until daybreak
If it still hasn’t stopped
I’ll stay another day
Something died in me that day
I lost my sanity
And nothing was real anymore
I was only a sore
And she was only a corpse
She laid with me until the sun rose
Into the sky
And there I could not cry
Lying by her
With the stench of death
Alive in every sense
I buried her deep inside the earth
She never bled
She only laid still
Her spirit overhead
And she knew how I longed to be dead
I now know only hate
Something died in me that day
I lost my sanity
And nothings real anymore
What many wouldn’t do
I’ve done it to myself
And I hang my head in shame
I’m lying in the rain
I don’t deserve this high
I only need myself to die
And it’s all so suddenly ruined
And broken
This pain is so surreal
I see her in my head
I’ve tied myself down
This cut will never heal
This dream is so surreal
I’ve scratched my skin
And bit my nails
I’ve only failed myself
This eye will see
Into me
And I’m so special
I’ve made them proud
Come walk with me
On this dark path
On the dark side
Like wax poetry
Sticking to your mind
And so forlorn
She cries with rage
She speaks with song
And I hold her until dawn
When you call
And you come over
And I kiss you but you pull away
One more time
As the problems fly by
You feed me blood
And plant the words
That I speak in every verse
Soldier of death
Marching across his marshmallow sky
Only regrets lie deep inside
Left searching for an untamed heart
One not broken beyond repair
Suddenly it wasn’t clear
I thought with death came fear
And I painted a smile on her that could never die
And I nailed her body to the wall
Hiding from the shadows
A moon glow face
Smiled down upon this place
Only I knew you lied
I drank until her veins caved in
Something deep inside
Dry hollow cavern of desecration
Melted on my pillow clouds
Nothing left but a deep sigh
